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Tom MacDonald - The System
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Tom MacDonald - Can't Cancel All Of Us
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Tom MacDonald - Race War (feat. Adam Calhoun)
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Tom MacDonald - FACTS (feat. Ben Shapiro)
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Tom MacDonald - Man In The Sky
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Tom MacDonald - God Mode
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Tom MacDonald - Trying To Kill Me
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Tom MacDonald - Black & White (feat. Adam Calhoun & Dax)
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Tom MacDonald - Blame The Rappers (feat. DAX)
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Tom MacDonald - American Flags (feat. Adam Calhoun)
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Tom MacDonald - Chrome (feat. Adam Calhoun & Nova Rockafeller)
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Tom MacDonald - Fake Woke
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Tom MacDonald - Hang On
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Tom MacDonald - People So Stupid
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Tom MacDonald - Superman
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Tom MacDonald - We Aint Cowboys (feat. Nova Rockafeller)
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Tom MacDonald - Bad News (feat. Madchild & Nova Rockafeller)
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Tom MacDonald - Best Rapper Ever
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Tom MacDonald - Cloned Rappers
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Tom MacDonald - Clown World
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Tom MacDonald - Don't Look Down
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Tom MacDonald - Dummies
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Tom MacDonald - Goodbye Joe (feat. Nova Rockafeller)
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Tom MacDonald - Names
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Tom MacDonald - WHITEBOY
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Tom MacDonald - Whiteboyz (feat. Adam Calhoun)
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Tom MacDonald - Your America (feat. Adam Calhoun)
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Tom MacDonald - America
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Tom MacDonald - American Dreamz
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Tom MacDonald - Anarchy (Spoken Word)
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Tom MacDonald - Angels
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Tom MacDonald - Anxiety (Spoken Word)
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Tom MacDonald - Ashes
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Tom MacDonald - Balloons
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Tom MacDonald - Beautiful Day
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Tom MacDonald - Boom Bap 101
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Tom MacDonald - Brainwashed
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Tom MacDonald - Buttholes
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Tom MacDonald - Cancelled
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Tom MacDonald - Cancer
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Tom MacDonald - Castles
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Tom MacDonald - Church (feat. Brandon Hart & Nova Rockafeller)
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Tom MacDonald - Coronavirus
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Tom MacDonald - Daddy's Home (feat. Roseanne Barr)
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Tom MacDonald - Danger (feat. Nova Rockafeller)
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Tom MacDonald - Dear God
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Tom MacDonald - Dear Rappers
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Tom MacDonald - Dear Slim
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Tom MacDonald - Dirty Money
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Tom MacDonald - End Of The World (feat. John Rich)
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Tom MacDonald - Everybody Hates Me
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Tom MacDonald - Everybody Needs Me
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Tom MacDonald - Exposure
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Tom MacDonald - Fake Fans
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Tom MacDonald - Fighter
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Tom MacDonald - Ghost
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Tom MacDonald - Hangman
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Tom MacDonald - Heart Emojis (feat. Brandon Hart & Nova Rockafeller)
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Tom MacDonald - Helluvit
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Tom MacDonald - Heroes
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Tom MacDonald - I Can't Sleep
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Tom MacDonald - I Hate Hip Hop
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Tom MacDonald - I Wish
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Tom MacDonald - I'm Sorry
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Tom MacDonald - If I Was Black
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Tom MacDonald - In God We Trust (feat. Adam Calhoun, Struggle Jennings & Nova Rockafeller)
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Tom MacDonald - Let It Snow (remix)
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Tom MacDonald - Mac Lethal Sucks
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Tom MacDonald - Me vs. You
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Tom MacDonald - Mirrors (feat. Adam Calhoun)
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Tom MacDonald - New World Order (feat. Adam Calhoun)
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Tom MacDonald - No Good Bastards (feat. Nova Rockafeller & Brandon Hart)
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Tom MacDonald - No Lives Matter
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Tom MacDonald - No Response
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Tom MacDonald - Not Alone (Spoken Word)
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Tom MacDonald - Pain In My Ass
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Tom MacDonald - Politically Incorrect
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Tom MacDonald - Riot
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Tom MacDonald - Sad Rappers
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Tom MacDonald - Scars
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Tom MacDonald - Sheeple
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Tom MacDonald - Shooters (Demo)
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Tom MacDonald - Snowflakes
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Tom MacDonald - Sober (feat. MadChild & Nova Rockafeller)
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Tom MacDonald - Straight White Male
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Tom MacDonald - Stronger Version
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Tom MacDonald - The Hard Way
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Tom MacDonald - The Machine
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Tom MacDonald - The Music Industry
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Tom MacDonald - The Way I Am
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Tom MacDonald - This House
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Tom MacDonald - Us Against The World
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Tom MacDonald - War Is Coming (Spoken Word)
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Tom MacDonald - Wild Horses (feat. Nova Rockafeller)
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Tom MacDonald - Withdrawals
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Tom MacDonald - You Missed
Balloons
Tom MacDonald
Now everywhere I go, I wear a hat to hide my face
I got weapons hidden inside every room in my place
Now I have to keep a pistol on me always just in case
This is a nightmare, never expected the fame
To be something I would wrestle with and fight to embrace
Sometimes I feel like the love I get's outweighed by the hate
I hid the tears, but I can't hide from the pain
I'm workin' 20-hour days, can't even lie to y'all, I'm burnt out
I sleep on my weight bench, tryna find the strength to work out
Should be happy I'm successful, I just went and bought my first house
Thought money would help, cure my depression, but it's worse, how?
Tired of it, lucky I don't have a manager 'cause I'd be firin' him
Tired of talkin' to other artists who just wanna tell me I'm inspirin' 'em
Parents keep tellin' me they have a kid and they're thankful the child is admirin' me
Great, you wanna know how I feel? I might kill myself before retiring
I'm in the clouds
I can't reach the ground
They're comin' in crowds
Blew me up like a balloon and let me
Go, watch me float away, well, I scream: No
Every time I get close, they pull out their phones
Like "Maybe this time we can see him explode"
Blew me up like a balloon and let me go
They all throwin' rocks 'cause they're tryna poke holes
They wanna see me pop, they don't wanna see me blow
They're the reason that I'm gone, they don't wanna see me blow
Blew me up like a balloon and left me
I miss the times when I could go outside
I didn't have to watch my back outta the corner of my eye
I didn't have to fake a smile and pose for pictures all the time
Can't even lie, I miss when time was really mine
Now I just belong to everybody else but me
These panic attacks are makin' it awful hard to breathe
Built a vocal booth inside the crib and stopped makin' beats
Don't even rap, I stand inside of it and scream
Like this is not what I expected, I worked my hands to the bone
And my anxiety is triggered by the apps on my phone
I tried deleting them, so the Internet would leave me alone
But the lack of attention made me feel worse than before
I'm sick of it all
The Internet watchin' me trip when I fall
Embarrassed that everyone witnesses all
My illness isn't real tired, man, I'm addicted to y'all
Rappers on Twitter don't get me at all
They're posing for photos with fans in the mall
I'm dying inside, pretending I'm strong
I'm not a celebrity, I am just Tom
I'm in the clouds
I can't reach the ground (huh)
They're comin' in crowds (fuck, I'm so scared)
Blew me up like a balloon and let me (I can't face it anymore)
Go, watch me float away, well, I scream: No
Every time I get close, they pull out their phones
Like: Maybe this time we can see him explode
Blew me up like a balloon and let me go
They all throwin' rocks 'cause they're tryna poke holes
They wanna see me pop, they don't wanna see me blow
They're the reason that I'm gone, they don't wanna see me blow
Blew me up like a balloon and left me
I miss the years when every Friday wasn't spent with my therapist
Then I realized I hated fame and accept that I'm scared of it
I got Ativan, Cipralex, Xanax and Seraquel
In a Tupperware container, I don't touch, I just stare at 'em
Breathin' exercises supposed to help me to cope
But nothin' works quite as good as a bottle of Jack and a smoke
I try to focus on my breath, but it gets stuck in my throat
This never happened back when I was young and happy and broke
I never thought I'd be the rapper all these rappers tried to be
Posting twenty times a day, now I don't have no privacy
Meeting with these major labels, CEOs with giant teams
If y'all wanna do business, why are y'all tryna lie to me?
I'm bored of the fame
Every time it feels fresh again I'm gettin' more of the same
Interviewers think they know who I am
They made up their mind before I explain
Well, because you asked so nice, I guess I'll tell
Ain't been feelin' too hot lately, Jim, is there anything else? Great
'Cause lately every day I feel like I'm livin' in hell
I'm glad the music helps you, but I might really kill myself
When this magazine gets printed, can you send one to my house?
I'd like to own a tiny piece of me like everybody else
Go, watch me float away, well, I scream: No
Every time I get close, they pull out their phones
Like: Maybe this time we can see him explode
Blew me up like a balloon and let me go
They all throwin' rocks 'cause they're tryna poke holes
They wanna see me pop, they don't wanna see me blow
They're the reason that I'm gone, they don't wanna see me blow
Blew me up like a balloon and left me