Jasmine Ave (yeah)
Sweet morning dew (heavy one, heavy one, heavy one)
(EMRLD)
You said you'd be in my arms
By the next (heavy one) crescent Moon (heavy one)
My immaturity created monsters
To any girl that I hurt, hope you feel the guilt when you hear this verse
Been wearin' it on my sleeve, see the hurt through the shirt
Lust got the best of me, couldn't focus on your worth
Didn't sympathize with your cries, you was tired
I was blind, tryna find peace in the person that I was
Instead of tryna grow into the man God designed
Bloomed a lil' late, but pray for divine timin'
But by that time, damage already done
A jail of hurt, wish that I could pay the bond
Resent me now, after you is where I run
Ain't no fun when the rabbit got the gun
Manipulator, misogynistic, narcissistic
I'm put in that statistic, but wasn't my intentions
Life came at a baby boy so fast
I was sixteen with the world in my hands
You said you'd be in my arms
By the next crescent Moon
Marissa, I apologize how I handled your heart
Pourin' into a boy, I was far from a man
Hurt me deeply seein' you bein' so good to me
Deep down, knew that I was takin' you for granted
Unappreciative, that was me self-sabotagin'
Feelin' like you deserved a better me
I walked away from you, tryna heal me
And left you stranded in a broken home while you was goin' through your pregnancy
Made a promise that I'd be back to you in no time
Along that journey, I had came to realize
I wasn't ready to be the man that you had fantasized
After I promised to be the man that you fantasized
Took my hands, then strangled the soul tie
In them nine months, I was probably there nine times
Promised you a wedding, you ain't get to see a wedding gown
Hope you see a better version of me in my own child
I know your background, pops was in jail (you said you'd be in my arms)
Mama still an addict, you never had a family (by the next crescent Moon)
Your home was abandoned, that was your chance to fix your curse
That's the part of the story that makes it worse
My upbringing significant to this situation
But I'ma save it, 'cause this an apology and accountability letter that I owed you
And it's been long awaited
And I hope you get it and then appreciate it
From this point, movin' forward, under oath, Marissa
Swear to fix the void, my actions viewed by the Lord
If I slip up, punish me by the sword
Can't fix the past, but today, let's move forward
Identified my crisis while I was tryna get righteous (you said you'd be in my arms)
So all my wrongs I'm writin' while also chasin' enlightenment (by the next crescent Moon)
I know my love was silent, somewhere my heart had went violent
Let's put the past behind us, forgiveness, I hope you find it
Genuinely apologize for real
Jasmine Ave
Sweet morning dew (heavy one)
You said you'd be in my arms (I apologize to anyone I ever hurt)
By the next crescent Moon (any monsters I created, I apologize for real)
It's some promises I kept
But the ones I didn't keep, them be the ones that hurt the most
Sorry
