Everytime I smile You say it's been awhile But last night when I was drinking I wasn't thinking And I was fine In fact I felt alright But I know you never see that side
And I'm just really sorry That you even have to be around me Cause I'm up and I'm down I'm lost and never found And I think you know that now
I'm numb Then I feel everything at once And I'm low But then I'm having so much fun And I'm high And that's when I start to cry Then you're gone And I can't blame anyone No, I can't blame anyone
I know these feelings aren't real But all these things They help my mind stand still And even if it's only temporary It feels nice to be a little empty
And I'm just really sorry That you can't help me Cause you try and you try And I see it in your eyes But nothing can make this fine
I'm numb Then I feel everything at once And I'm low But then I'm having so much fun And I'm high And that's when I start to cry Then you're gone And I can't blame anyone No, I can't blame anyone