FAITHFUL (feat. NLE Choppa)

Feel like I'm runnin' out of time, now they sayin' I won't shine forever, forever
I got my mind on my money, on my money, man, fuck it, whatever, whatever
Sometimes I wake up on the wrong side, I don't even feel like gettin' up
But this depression on my brain, hope it change but there ain't no lettin' up

Can't call it, don't know where my head is
Reflectin' on Malcolm and the shit I thought but never said it
To Peter, Robin, to Kevin
All my other friеndships that could have, would have, should have
And thеn they ended
I isolate between happiness and hopeless
Know it makes it worse, still wanna get loaded
Sometimes I feel like can't control my choices
And somethin' takes over and I can't turn off the voices
Sittin' with these thoughts, can't escape 'em, can't run
Got some bullets in the dresser as I polish my gun
They sayin' they clean as a day one
But I'm holdin' on, prayin' to a God, abandoned
Zonin' on the couch
Starin' at my daughter's, know there's a pill in this house that I'm obssessin' about poppin'
Reservations talkin', the push and pull of the conscience
Should probably pick up the phone and call my sponsor, but don't wanna
When the Percs don't work, Xannies won't calm me down
Not enough liquor in the bar, we growin' in the ground
Trapped by these walls where my brain can't get out
Wonderin' if my momma have to put her son in the ground

We stop growin' when the day break
Me and the homies on the same page
Find me in whip, that's my safe place
Feel like I'm gettin' weak, I need some help, ayy
Need someone to pray for my soul right now
Everything's lookin' great and there's no white clouds (oh)
I don't know what to say, I got nothin' to write down
On my knees, questionin' God like: Why now?
I'm lost but I'm found again

I'm up all night, I toss and turn
I love my life, I got concerns
I've been through hell, on some FML
It's just as well, I might lose it
I need some light, I need some air
I might be broken I need repair
Don't got the answers, think I'm confused
I asked myself: Who are you?

I need you right now Mack' to wake up more than over
Ain't no more weed, alcohol and poppin' pills, etcetera
I know these days get rough but they'll get better
It's a cold world, let's go to the Gucci store for a sweater
Feel it deeply in my heart, you need this letter
So I pour my feelings out to you, before I got and mail it (before I mail it)
I don't know what I'm sensin' but I could smell it
When you write me back, just tell it, I'ma soak it up and hell it (hell it)
Heard you got a daughter, well, I got one too
And she too beautiful, barely see her too (see her too)
Do you hug her and tie her shoes?
Is she reflectin' of you and got a smile that bloom? (Bloom)
Before you load that gun and shoot, just know that she be needin' you
The best version of you too
I would write more but my day about to break
We can meet up face to face, just let me know if this okay

We stop growin' when the day break
Me and the homies on the same page
Find me in whip, that's my safe place (that's my safe place too)
Feel like I'm gettin' weak, I need some help, ayy (I need some help, ayy, too)
Need someone to pray for my soul right now
Everything's lookin' great and there's no white clouds
I don't know what to say, I got nothin' to write down (nothin' to write down too)
On my knees, questionin' God like: Why now? (Why?)
I'm lost but I'm found again