Feels like it's rained in my head for a hundred days (feels like it's rained in my head for a hundred days)
Stare in the mirror and I look for another face (stare in the mirror and I look for another face)
And I get so tired of putting out fires and making up lies
Checking my eyes for some kinda light, but
Nothing's inside and it feels like it's rained in my head for a hundred days
And I say I hate you when I don't
Push you when you get too close
It's hard to laugh when I'm the joke
But I can't do this on my
Only you can save me from my lack of self-control
Sometimes bad things take the place where good things go
I've asked for forgiveness a hundred times (I've asked for forgiveness a hundred times)
Believed it myself when I halfway apologized (believed it myself when I halfway apologized)
And it's not unfair, I'm asking for prayers, but nobody cares
Going nowhere, like falling downstairs while everyone stares
No one's there when I've asked for forgiveness a hundred times
And I say I hate you when I don't
Push you when you get too close
It's hard to laugh when I'm the joke
But I can't do this on my
Only you can save me from my lack of self-control
Sometimes bad things take the place where good things go
No, I'm just taking a shot, ah
Maybe I'm just too eager, oh
Maybe I lost the plot, ha
I used to pity some people, I
Said they were missing a spine, yeah
Maybe the problem is ego, maybe the
Maybe the problem is mine, really, I'm fine
Don't get too intimate, don't get too curious
This is just feeling like it's not that serious
Stare at the ceiling feeling delirious
Fuck all your empathy, I want your fury, 'cause I will just
Tell you I'm better then, better then
Spit out my medicine, medicine, ayy
Drunk on adrenaline, —drenaline, ayy
And I don't know why I
Say I hate you when I don't
Push you when you get too close
It's hard to laugh when I'm the joke
But I can't do this on my
Only you can save me from my lack of self-control
And I won't make excuses for the pain I caused us both
So thank you for always standing by me even though
Sometimes bad things take the place where good things go
