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La Dispute - Woman (In Mirror)
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La Dispute - King Park
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La Dispute - Such Small Hands
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La Dispute - Nobody, Not Even the Rain
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La Dispute - Environmental Catastrophe Film
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La Dispute - New Storms For Older Lovers
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La Dispute - Objects In Space
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La Dispute - Said the King To the River
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La Dispute - All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks
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La Dispute - Andria
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La Dispute - Damaged Goods
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La Dispute - I See Everything
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La Dispute - A Letter
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La Dispute - Edit Your Hometown
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La Dispute - Future Wars
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La Dispute - Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies
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La Dispute - The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
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La Dispute - You And I In Unison
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La Dispute - A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning
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La Dispute - Anxiety Panorama
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La Dispute - Bury Your Flames
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La Dispute - Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again
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La Dispute - For Mayor in Splitsville
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La Dispute - Harder Harmonies
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La Dispute - Rhodonite And Grief
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La Dispute - Sibling Fistfight at Mom's Fiftieth / The Un-Sound
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La Dispute - The Surgeon And The Scientist
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La Dispute - Why It Scares Me
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La Dispute - You Ascendant
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La Dispute - 35
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La Dispute - A
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La Dispute - A Broken Jar
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La Dispute - A Departure
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La Dispute - A Poem
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La Dispute - Autofiction detail
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La Dispute - Edward Benz, 27 Times
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La Dispute - Eight
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La Dispute - Eleven
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La Dispute - End Times Sermon
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La Dispute - Extraordinary Dinner Party
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La Dispute - Fairmount
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La Dispute - First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
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La Dispute - Five
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La Dispute - Footsteps At The Pond
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La Dispute - Four
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La Dispute - Fulton Street I
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La Dispute - Fulton Street Ii
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La Dispute - He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid
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La Dispute - How I Feel
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La Dispute - Hudsonville Mi
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La Dispute - I Dreamt Of A Room With All My Friends I Could Not Get In
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La Dispute - I Shaved My Head
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La Dispute - In Northern Michigan
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La Dispute - Landlord Calls The Sheriff In
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La Dispute - Last Blues
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La Dispute - Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles
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La Dispute - Man With Hands And Ankles Bound
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La Dispute - Nine
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La Dispute - No One Was Driving The Car
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La Dispute - One
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La Dispute - Only Everything Below
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La Dispute - Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan
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La Dispute - Saturation Diver
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La Dispute - Scenes from Highways 1981-2009
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La Dispute - See You In Vancouver
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La Dispute - Self-Portrait Backwards
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La Dispute - Seven
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La Dispute - Shall Never Lose It's Power
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La Dispute - Six
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La Dispute - St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues
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La Dispute - Stay Happy There
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La Dispute - Steve
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La Dispute - Sunday Morning, At a Funeral
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La Dispute - Ten
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La Dispute - The Castle Builders
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La Dispute - The Child We Lost
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La Dispute - The Field
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La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent
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La Dispute - Then Again, Maybe You Were Right
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La Dispute - There You Are (Hiding Place)
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La Dispute - Thirteen
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La Dispute - Three
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La Dispute - To Withstand The Force Of Storms
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La Dispute - Top-Sellers Banquet
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La Dispute - Twas The Night Before Christmas
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La Dispute - Twelve
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La Dispute - Two
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La Dispute - Untitled
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La Dispute - View From Our Bedroom Window
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La Dispute - Woman (Reading)
A Letter
La Dispute
It's so much easier with someone or something to blame.
I've always struggled at the root of the problem.
Has it been absence or my constant lack of defense?
I've never spent a lot on finding a remedy.
I guess i figured that it hurt for a reason.
I guess that's why i've always turned to writing it down.
Not just in stories, but the letters in between.
And i guess that's why it haunts the pages of everything-
To self-examine.
I think the thing is that i shut off from everything.
From friends and family and my own ambitions.
From having fun.
I just shut off from everything.
Self-defeating? yeah, probably.
But i don't know that i had total control over it.
And i'm not sure it even matters why.
Sometimes things happen and you can't do anything.
Plus, i'm the only one who deals with it anyway.
So if everyone could do me a favor and
Just put their fingers down
I'd-and keep your mouths-
Sorry. i know i seem angry.
I'm not, i…i promise. i just know i did this to me.
And i will deal with it accordingly.
And i don't need opinions from those never a part of it.
Don't need them pointing out my problems, they're mine.
Don't need reminders, i know better than anyone.
And yeah, i know, i should be finding another way.
I know that i should be out seeking a substitute.
But just forgetting never really made sense to me.
So i haven't been.
Do i feel embarrassed about it?
I think you know the answer to that.
I think you'd probably feel a little bit embarrassed for me,
Wouldn't you?
I know i should've moved on ages ago, been happy already,
But it's never been that easy for me.
Or maybe it was me that made it so hard.
I know i've only ever tried a handful of times
To sever this thing torturing me.
It never got me anywhere, with anyone.
No friendship or hobby, no lover's bed worked.
But looking back i maybe never tried hard enough,
And it is my fault.
Maybe i never tried at all
