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La Dispute - King Park
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La Dispute - Said the King To the River
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La Dispute - Woman (In Mirror)
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La Dispute - Such Small Hands
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La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent
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La Dispute - Andria
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La Dispute - Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again
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La Dispute - Extraordinary Dinner Party
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La Dispute - Hudsonville Mi
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La Dispute - Nobody, Not Even the Rain
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La Dispute - There You Are (Hiding Place)
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La Dispute - 35
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La Dispute - A Broken Jar
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La Dispute - All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks
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La Dispute - Anxiety Panorama
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La Dispute - Edward Benz, 27 Times
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La Dispute - For Mayor in Splitsville
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La Dispute - Nine
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La Dispute - One
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La Dispute - Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies
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La Dispute - Six
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La Dispute - The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
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La Dispute - Twas The Night Before Christmas
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La Dispute - View From Our Bedroom Window
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La Dispute - A
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La Dispute - A Departure
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La Dispute - A Letter
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La Dispute - A Poem
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La Dispute - A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning
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La Dispute - Bury Your Flames
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La Dispute - Damaged Goods
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La Dispute - Edit Your Hometown
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La Dispute - Eight
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La Dispute - Eleven
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La Dispute - Fairmount
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La Dispute - First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
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La Dispute - Five
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La Dispute - Footsteps At The Pond
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La Dispute - Four
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La Dispute - Fulton Street I
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La Dispute - Fulton Street Ii
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La Dispute - Future Wars
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La Dispute - Harder Harmonies
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La Dispute - He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid
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La Dispute - How I Feel
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La Dispute - I See Everything
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La Dispute - In Northern Michigan
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La Dispute - Last Blues
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La Dispute - Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles
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La Dispute - New Storms For Older Lovers
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La Dispute - Objects In Space
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La Dispute - Only Everything Below
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La Dispute - Rhodonite And Grief
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La Dispute - Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan
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La Dispute - Scenes from Highways 1981-2009
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La Dispute - See You In Vancouver
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La Dispute - Seven
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La Dispute - Shall Never Lose It's Power
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La Dispute - St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues
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La Dispute - Stay Happy There
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La Dispute - Sunday Morning, At a Funeral
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La Dispute - Ten
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La Dispute - The Castle Builders
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La Dispute - The Child We Lost
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La Dispute - The Surgeon And The Scientist
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La Dispute - Then Again, Maybe You Were Right
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La Dispute - Thirteen
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La Dispute - Three
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La Dispute - To Withstand The Force Of Storms
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La Dispute - Twelve
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La Dispute - Two
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La Dispute - Untitled
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La Dispute - Why It Scares Me
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La Dispute - Woman (Reading)
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La Dispute - You And I In Unison
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La Dispute - You Ascendant
Why It Scares Me
La Dispute
Just to see if the people around me react.
Sometimes I think they're all acting,
At times I'm scared that I'm acting too. Like,
My movements or stage directions?
Was that a change in topic or a beat in a scene?
Have I been taking my emotional cues from a script I wrote at sixteen?
Maybe I just think about it all so much
That that the fear stays close to all the ghosts I've touched.
Makes me question
Was it love or just lust?
Caked in blood or old rust?
I don't know.
Don't we remember all the moments we remember the best
Framed in poems and in pictures, sang aloud in refrains?
Does this cycle of pain and disdain for the past
Not work exactly the same?
Maybe it's just as much about what comes our way as it is about how we react.
Just as much about the things that we've still got as it is about the things we lack.
I know we won't always keep around all we feel we need-
some are fading in frames, some were born to leave-
But if we're still here, and we still breathe,
I guess we've still got time to figure it out,
To know what to do,
To know how to feel,
Know the things that I've been making up inside my head, and
To know what's real.
I want to believe that the way I am is just the way things go.
For the things that came, not the things I chose
to come.
I want to know if I had any control.
I want to know if it'd comfort me.
And if my heart just stops, pack my memories in it-
I want to know all the love I've got.
And if my heart just stops, keep me alive for a minute-
I want to know if a curtain drops.
