Sorry
No!
The year I learned to tie my own shoes
Was the same year I learned
I could take my own life
Was the same year
My sister said she wished she was pretty
That's when I felt
The wicked in the closet come alive
The next year I learned to shave it
Was the year I held the blade
In the bathroom, cut my knuckles off
Too scared to do the other thing
And the year they taught us grace
Was the year I lost my faith
I was praying for a friend to help me
Bury all the secrets in the grave
In my mom's old house
Found the evil hand-me-down
It's in the basement, it was waiting for me
Screaming: Take me home
I tried it on
Felt so good in my arms
Till it didn't, thread the ribbon
There's no place like home
I'm not alone here, am I?
I was learning how to multiply nines
With my fingers
Around the same time I was ready
To fly, I would listen to Madonna
On my mom's old stereo, rewind, pause and repeat
Until I got the words right
Then I heard her crying in the hallway
We graded papers all night
And I love her
Think I'll stay here longer
Her darkness looks just like mine
In my mom's old house
Found the evil hand-me-down
It's in the basement, it was waiting for me
Screaming: Take me home
I tried it on
Felt so good in my arms
Till it didn't, thread the ribbon
There's no place like home
I'm not alone here, am I?
I'm not alone here, am I?
