I was a child
Born to be broken
I had everything
Except words unspoken
I didn't see you for months
Even though you lived so near
Too distracted
By your own world to even care
Raised by anyone
I felt neglected
You were my mother
Raised by anyone
I felt abandoned
For being different
And I know you had tried your best
But it was never good enough
You don't know the effect
That you had on me
You gave me life
But you were never there
And I'm tired of this pain (I'm choosing to forgive)
And I'm tired of this hate in me (but I'll never forget)
You don't know the effect
That you had on me
I see now the worst parts of me came from you
But I can't seem to shake this fractured view
I fear I'm as selfish as you were
And one day my kids will resent me too
You were supposed to keep me safe
Instead, you were too wrapped up
In your own faith
And I can safely say I'm proud
Of the person you are today
But you used to let me down
Is it too hard to hear me say?
You don't know the effect
That you had on me
You gave me life
But you were never there
And I'm tired of this pain (I'm choosing to forgive)
And I'm tired of this hate in me (but I'll never forget)
You don't know the effect
That you had on me
You gave me life
But you never taught me how to live
Somehow I survived
In the end we all pay for our sins
Mom, I want you to know
You are not who you were before
And even though it seems I can't let it go
I forgave you a long time ago
You gave me life
But you never taught me how to live
Somehow I survived
In the end we'll all pay for our sins
